I suppose I’m glad we’re living in the digital age, otherwise Nicky and I would have gone through half a roll of film in effort to capture a half-okay pic of us on Sunday.

It started when the gal slung an arm around me, held up her camera and said something upon the lines of “say cheese”.  Somehow, that pic didn’t turn out right, so we took another snap. Still didn’t look right.  Another snap.  What’s wrong with this camera? Damn thing’s broken or something. Another snap.

We finally figured out the problem.  And it was so much worse than a malfunctioning camera.  It was us.  We no longer look the way we think we should inside our heads.  We’re aging.

Deteriorating.

Well, I can’t speak for Nicky, she’s three years younger than me. She can still pull off the whole young thing. Bitch. (Yeah yeah, I meant that affectionately.)

For me personally, I preview a pic of myself and think “wait that’s not right, I must’ve been holding my face funny. Let’s try that again”, and take another shot.  Again with the “wait, that’s not right…” And on and on it goes.

…Until at last I realise; No, the camera’s not simply catching me at a bad moment, this is in fact what I look like.

Okay I know, I was never much of a catch in the first place.  But that’s not the point. The point is; holy crap, I’ve aged.  More than that - I’ve lost several years of my life!  On the eve of my 25th, I took a pause in breath and didn’t exhale again for another four years.  No wonder I can’t remember what I did last week.  I still think I’m 24!  That is, until I see a photo of myself and discover I’m actually closing in on 30.  Then, in denial, I figure there must be something wrong with the bloody camera! Stupid girl.  *facepalm*

Sometimes when a person is drunk enough, you can shave off their eyebrows while they’re sleeping and stick cigerette butts up their nostrils.  In my case, someone glued eye-wrinkles to my face, then put a lipo machine on ‘blower’ and fed an extra 10 kilos into my body.  Much of which appears to have gone into my face.

When did my face get so fat? Was it always this fat? Did I just never notice before? Am I already developing the sagging jowls of the elderly?

Oh dear gods.  Ten billion photos later, and that was the only one that was part-way viewable. I wasn’t trying to smile. I was cringing.  And that was before I realised the great doom of my lost youth.

I think I’ll go to bed now, and hope to wake in an alternative universe where a more fortunate Callie Taylor has made a successful career choice and earnt enough money for cosmetic surgery. Goodnight!